crazy-chinita-chick

my eyes are heavy but i must keep awake i cannot sleep it's too big a risk to take i stay by your side watching for signs of movement that will give me hope and tell me you're gonna wake up. sometimes i think i see you smile but then it fades away and all i'm left with is my imagination running wild. you look so calm and peaceful as if you're just sleeping and i'm so scared that you'll stay that way forever. . . do you hear me talking to you? do you listen to the stories i tell? can you feel me smile at you as i take your hand and say "how i wish i was you instead you can do so much more than me but i'm awake and you're

i don't know why everytime i see you talking to her my chest tightens and it feels as if i'm running with all my might yet the world excruciatingly painstakingly slows... i forget to breathe i forget to live even though i know i'm like a stupid fool imagining you smiling at me the way you smile, dimpling in the special way you do but only when she's there telling myself again and again the improbability of such silly daydreams wiping away my tears as i laugh then feeling empty inside as i think to myself no matter how much ...i care for you ...i love you ...the thought of you makes me smile ...your sorrows hurt me ..